rambled thoughs

hmm its not uncommon i suppose to be feeling so useless at this point.

late night ramblings aside, i have little to do. so what do i do to occupy my newly found abundant free time?

i create a blog *sigh*

i've been home must be about 2-3 months now and the charm has evidently worn off. not least becuase i have now finished work experience, have done and handed in all my outstanding assignments and i'm now not due back to uni till september. again i have mixed feelings about it, not as mixed as when i moved out of halls and left though. i suppose i should be greatful for that.

thinking about it now, maybe zetsubou billy by maximum the hormone isnt the best thing to be listening to right now. leaves too much thought open for emoing and i'm done with that for now.

i've had many things to think about as one does when they have nothing else to do. amongst my thoughts are my friends. i've been flicking through yin's photos while i was trying to work out how to create a badge to display my photos on this blog. i went right back to the begining...

after some really nice photos of his garden which i really like because i am slightly obsessed and intriegued by plants now there where photos of the leavers ball. it was interesting looking through them seeing everyone barely over a year ago. no ones changed much, 'cept maybe dans hair, and yins hair is back to normal (*shakes fist* you cut it again, and you'll pay)
i havnt changed much either really, thats a problem in my eyes, but we'll deal with that as we go. *sigh*

i'm not sure what i'm saying anymore and i certainly dont expect anyone to understand really.

i really shouldnt be listening to linkin park now, it has the ability to affect emotions and writing believe it or not. if i was to ever do a thesis on anything it would be how music affects writting styles and circumstances. alas i'm doing horticulture and my thesis must be related. maybe i can do one on how music affects designers drawing XD

i know for one that i couldnt concentrate on my drawing when i was doing my design assignment and had music on. i ended up putting on the ouran high radio podcasts on. slightly random i know, but i understand some of it suprisingly. theres 3 that where in a bonus folder of one of the OSTs i downloaded a while ago all about 15-20 mins long. mostly of haruhi and either tamaki or kyoya i think. i love haruhi's voice actor, shes so awesome and its cool to hear her "out of character"
they tried a new drink in one of the shows and it sounded like she exploded cos she liked it so much XD and then tamaki's va started choking XD and him and kyoya's va were making fun of her calling her haruhi and stuff, it was funny.

so anyway, amongst all the second thoughts and mixed vibes of moods and emotions i'm getting from EVERYONE, i'm just trying to figure out at this point where everyone stands when i dont even know where i myself stand.

i'm sure i've rambled on in this blog long enough now, this is probably going to be a random, whatever the hell is going on kinda blog, probably mixed in with some music reviews as i'm starting to check out new artists now.

ok, i'm going to go watch stranger then fiction again and try to stay off ebay (as i've just thought of some more films that i want to buy) and work on fanart.
i want to work on my painting ironically, now that my board is needed elsewhere. i'll get it back later, my room is feeling kinda weird without my A0 drawing board taking up one wall and half the floor when its out.

ja ne.